Friday, March 25, 2016

If I hold onto you, it hurts

I couldn’t help it so I threw it all out
I erased all of my emotions
But I couldn’t erase you (let me free)
Because my heart was too sad (let me breathe)
I just need to live like this, I just need to breathe
I just need to be alive, why can’t I?
I said it’s okay (let me free)
This is better for me (let me breathe) oh
I was afraid that I’d get cut by your sharp, knife-like words
I just need to breathe and eat to endure through this
I was a coward, I wanted to endure through
I’m holding my heart in my hand
I chose a life that is for me
I don’t want to let go of myself
I don’t want to ruin myself anymore
Memories that aren’t ending even when it’s over
I have no confidence to win over it
Love, in the end
Is a lie to just one person
Now look at me forgetting you
With your eyes wide open
Don’t ever forget me
Don’t ever erase me
My heart was limping and this is the end of the road
After making that decision and taking a breath
I let out a deep sigh
I rip her up from inside my heart
As I let out a silent scream
I’m erasing the after images that are floating around
Burning up the remaining memories up to the sky, burn
I saw you again, I cried
Something went terribly wrong
My heart is still remembering (let me free)
Everything was the same (let me breathe)
There’s nowhere to run from you
If I hold onto you, it hurts
But if I let you go, it hurts even more
This place is deeper than a dream inside a dream
I have no confidence to escape from it
Saying that I’ll forget you
Is all a lie that remains in me
Your face spreads throughout my heart again
It hurts even more than before
I think I miss you even more
I think it’s even more dangerous

Error by Vixx.
nomu nomu nomu nomu chukaheyo.
^_______^

Thursday, March 24, 2016

Im jUst DiffereNt

I’m just different
I’m just different
Don’t expect kindness
I’m Angel and Demon
Misunderstanding can be harmful
Even if you’re lonely because of me
Try to understand baby
I want to express it but it’s not easy.

I shot a gun at your heart, I’m selfish.
That’s right, I’m a bad guy.
Even if you try to place a period in our future
there’s only a comma because of me.
Please stay.
Don’t leave me
My feelings are like yours
I’m for real love ya
When you and I kiss, that’s all I am.
I tell you to keep a distance.
Even when you come into my arms,
I don’t hug you back.
You keep asking if I’m joking and what our relationship means
You ask me if I don’t love you.
That’s not how I feel

I’m just different
I’m different from the type of guy you want
I’m just different
I can’t be a nice guy
You might be hurt because of me
I’m just different
But please don’t leave me
even if I’m a bad guy.

Even if time passes, the distance between us won’t decrease
No matter how much you say you understand me.
I see you holding back your tears and smiling
I know
I can’t do anything about my heart
I know this is how you and I will be forever.
I just want to be next to you.
I’m selfish.

But please don’t leave me.
I’m only different from the guy you expect.
Stop being in an illusion
From the day we first met, I wore a mask over my face.
Emotions empty as a crushed can,
don’t touch me, you’ll only be hurt by my sharp words
No matter how much you cry and ask me where I was last night
I’ll look straight into your eyes and lie.
Even if you try to melt me down, I’ll only act colder to you.
I’ll hurt you with the same mistakes and scars, like it’s nothing.

I’m just different
I’m different from the type of guy you want
I’m just different
But please don’t leave me.
Even if I’m a bad guy like this,
even if I get colder, don’t ever lose you warmth.
I’ll never let you go
I’ll stay the same oh

I’m just different
I’m different from the type of guy you want
I’m just different
But please don’t leave me,
even if I’m a bad guy like this.
I’m just different
I’m just different
I’m just different


Different by Winner.
daebak lyrics.

Saturday, March 5, 2016

my cRazy L0vE

hahahaahahahahahahahahahaha
post sawan.
smlm...smlm..smlm..smlm...terjumpaa....omgggggggggggggggggggggggggg!

the meeting made me lack of sleep during the night.adess.
drpd lapa terus kenyang.tp perut bunyi suh isi.ayoyooo.
tp pk secara baik..ade hikmah disebalik setiap takdir Allah tu kan.
tp leh senyum sorg2..pk pny pk malu pun ade haha
my heart is still struggling.
Alhamdulillah. thank you Allah for making me smile.


he smile, and i smile.

video

Friday, March 4, 2016

Je ireumeun fadzilah imnida

Assalamualaikum.

aloha aloha aloha.
haippp byk swg nye blog ni..lme tggl kn.hahaha poyos.

okay lets started.mepek time.

hmmm.nothing to write actually..thats why mepek time. exercise time for my fingers before doing something beneficial. im going to do the analysis for the data collected for my projects..so skrg moh kt mpek dlu.muaha.

life...the few days of my life were meaningless. seems like i already lost somewhere. where? dont know. so now im going to get back on the track. please pray for me please.huuuu

new aim, new determination..wanna be the best that i can be. maklumla hdup ni kn skjp je..so jgn sia-siakn. i wanna be someone that is great. bkn stkt bse2 je..insyaAllah dgn izinNya. do pray for me keh. lets do the things right and with full motivations. put aside all the null thoughts. haha..you know lately i got this strange thoughts. dush3. buang2 jauh!

ahaa! lately giless infinite..haha..mmg ske infinite dr dlu ske tp skrg hr2 wajib tgk infinite sblm tdo..kuang2. smpi hoya, L, sungkyu, woohyun leh msuk mmp.haa hbt x hbt tu kekekeke..xleh blah kn.love them damn much.huahua. hopefully to get someone as handsome as L, as witty as hoya and as loving and cute as woohyun..to love me as i am.hahaha *pengsan kalau dapat* :D

sooooooooo, to boast up the meaning of my life that been abandoned for this time..lets get back fadzilah! dont waste any time more keh. we should be great not vice versa. anggerey? okay chuaheyo. ^^

its never too late to return back or make uturn from the past that hurt you. as you live, there are many times we stumble and fall, so if you fall then gather the strength back and become strong okayh?!

wish myself all the best. you are just beautiful and great as you as. and lets become one. peace!


OnLy teaRs

I love you. I’m sorry
But i can’t do this anymore
I don’t even have the right to get close to you
Don’t love me
I don’t have the ease of being able to give you my heart
I live every day beyond my strength
Each day is too much so i cry
Oh, i.. I don’t have anything i can give you
(but i’m) missing you
I can’t even give you loving words
But i’m missing you
I can’t even boldly wish for you to be mine
But i’m missing you
So i push you away
Because i’m a guy who has nothing but his own heart
I’m holding back, even though it hurts
Even tears are a luxury for me
I don’t even have the right to look at you
Don’t look at me
I know that my heart is wherever you are
Close enough our breaths can touch
Always in that same place
Oh, i… i don’t have anything i can give you
(but i’m) missing you
I can’t even give you loving words
But i’m missing you
I can’t even boldly wish for you to be mine
But i’m missing you
So i push you away
More than anyone else in this world
I love you, so i hold back
Oh i… i can’t hold your hand
But i’m missing you
I’m worried i might just have my tears to hold
So i’m missing you
I can’t tell you to stay with me
But i’m missing you
So it’s too much, but in the end
It’s because i’m a man who has nothing but his own heart

-infinite: Only Tears-