G0odbye N0w

I threw it all away, all the times with you
One by one, without you, I’m forgetting

I write letters word by word
But there’s no one to read it

Goodbye now, goodbye for real, leave me
Forget all the times we spent together
Goodbye now, goodbye for real, leave me
I call you again several times but I can’t figure you out
Goodbye now

I keep thinking of the times I spent with you
When I walk, walk without you, I think of you

Traces of you that remain in each corner of my room
I burn them up without a sound

Goodbye now, goodbye for real, leave me
Forget all the times we spent together
Goodbye now, goodbye for real, leave me
I call you again several times but I can’t figure you out
Goodbye now

I said I wouldn’t be able to endure it
But now I don’t even hope for you to come back

Goodbye now, goodbye for real, I let you go
I wash away all the memories we had together
Goodbye now, goodbye for real, leave me
I call you for the last time but there’s no answer
Goodbye now

Goodbye now.

-Ailee-

ThE UnToLd tRuTh

This garden is filled

With blossoming loneliness

I tied myself

To this sand castle filled with thorns

What is your name?

Do you even have a place to go?

Oh could you tell me?

I saw you hiding in this garden

And I know

Your heat is real

Your hand picks the blue flowers

I want to hold it but

This is my destiny

Don’t smile on me

Light on me

Because I can’t go to you

There’s no name to call

You know that I can’t

Show you me

Give you me

I can’t show you my weakness

So I’m putting on a mask to go see you

But I still want you

A flower that resembles you

Blossomed in this garden of loneliness

I wanted to give it to you

As I take off this stupid mask

But I know

This can’t go on forever

I must hide

Because I’m ugly

I’m afraid

So pathetic

I’m so afraid

In the end, will you leave me too?

So I’m putting on a mask to go see you

What I can do is

To make a pretty flower

That resembles you

Blossom in this garden, in this world

Then breathe as the person you know

But I still want you

I still want you

Maybe back then

If I had just a little more

Courage

And stood before you

Would everything be different now?

I’m crying

At this sandcastle

That’s disappearing

And breaking down

As I look at this broken mask

And I still want you

But I still want you

But I still want you

And I still want you

BTS
~The truth untold~

::Its the time::

This is the end

Hold your breath and count to ten

Feel the earth move and then

Hear my heart burst again..

13/2/2018

I already returned all the things..

Finally..

Its mean that its the time.

Time to what?

Time to be greater..

To be the amazing me..

Never turn back and be like a fool again

Never be pathetic again

Never be someone that is not me again

Never reminisce whatever happened again

Never try to think or feel that feelings again

Lets be the amazing me

Lets the world know how worth of me

Lets find the happiness..the real happiness this time

"True love waits..

In haunted attics."

Smile.

Unspeakable secret

A secret you can’t tell anyone

Everyone has a secret like that

Even if you say it’s nothing special

Even if I try to be indifferent, it hurts

Don’t love me

I can’t help my heart being like this

What I can give you

Are just unstoppable tears

With a strange face you’ve seen for the first time

I would only give you scars in your heart

I’m just going to leave you so I can love you alone

Even loneliness feels like a long-time friend

It’s time I get used to it but I miss you

Don’t love me

I can’t help my heart being like this

What I can give you

Are just unstoppable tears

With a strange face you’ve seen for the first time

I would only give you scars in your heart

I’m just going to leave you so I can love you alone

Don’t come to me

I can’t help my heart being like this

I’m afraid the pain will go to you

I don’t know if you know that’s why I’m pushing you away

Forget the me that used to love you

Just remember the bad me who only made you cry

The lies I reluctantly say

I say with no choice because it’s for you

Though I can’t tell you I love you, I love you